I was diagnosed with depression and panic disorder at 16.
The first symptoms were headaches and nausea. I thought it was just a cold, so I took medicine and went to school.
But one morning, I woke up with bad stomach pain, goosebumps, and uncontrollable sweating.
It felt different from usual, so I told my parents. My mom thought I was just trying to skip school and didn’t listen, so I forced myself to go.
At school, the nausea didn’t stop, I lost my appetite, and I kept vomiting.
The cause of my depression symptoms was school bullying.
I told my parents about the bullying, but they blamed me and ignored my pleas for help.
I kept enduring it, but the same symptoms hit daily. Eventually, I couldn’t get out of bed in the morning.
Suddenly, tears would flow for no reason, and I couldn’t stop crying or leave my bed.
My parents tried dragging me out to go to school, but I screamed, breathed heavily, and hyperventilated.
I stopped going to school and shut myself in my room, unable to eat or drink, just sleeping all day.
I hated my parents coming in, so I blocked the door with stuff.
About a week later, a teacher suggested to my parents that I see a psychiatrist. The next day, they forced me to go to one.
Back then, everyone felt like an enemy. In the counseling room, I couldn’t say a word, just cried.
The diagnosis was depression and panic disorder.
I went to counseling daily and took meds. After about two months, my symptoms started to ease.
It took about two years, but with fewer meds and support from my teachers and parents, I could go back to school and graduate.
It’s been over ten years, and I haven’t needed treatment since. It feels like a dream now.
Back then, I thought every day was the end. Depression and panic disorder are painful and hard to understand unless you’ve been through them.
But don’t give up. Believe in getting better and stick with treatment.
Results might not come fast, but take it slow and keep moving forward.
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※This article is a personal depression story. The content is solely based on personal experience and is not medical advice. Consult a doctor for professional advice.