Living with Depression as a Married Woman in My 30s

I’m a married woman in my 30s. I was diagnosed with depression in my late 20s during grad school and am still on medication.

I don’t fully know what caused my depression. Was it the busy environment, piled-up stress, my personality, or something else? I think it was probably a mix of all those things.

At my worst, I was bedridden. If I slept, I’d have bad dreams. If I was awake, I was hit with anxiety, despair, and guilt. I often felt consumed by dark thoughts.

I tried different meds, but none worked wonders. Still, carefully chosen medication, changing my environment, and time helped me slowly recover. They say depression doesn’t fully go away, and I still take meds, but I can live more peacefully now compared to before.

Recovery wouldn’t have been possible without the support and understanding of those around me. I’m not sure I’d have come this far without my husband and parents accepting and watching over me. I can’t thank them enough for empathizing with my pain, understanding my depression, and sticking with me patiently.

I plan to keep managing my depression with meds, a regular lifestyle, and not pushing myself too hard.

※This article is a personal depression story. The content is solely based on personal experience and is not medical advice. Consult a doctor for professional advice.